The Calling..

Well I guess this it the moment you've all been wait for the end. Yes im giving up Im tired of the struggle the war that grows inside my mind. I set the plan in motion to go out with a bang.I wanted to change the world but I guess that wasn't for me to do. Tonight I say goodnight to this world and and all the badness and sadness connected to it. I don't ask you to remember me and all the things that I done but remember why I left an make a better tomorrow for yourself. I loved you all and with a few word from one of my favorite bands

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep Publish Post
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Complications...

So life is well life just is right now. Things aren't bad but this aren't so great right now either. So my band is actually doing rather well right now we have a ton of shows booked which is amazing. I had a local producer ask to buy one of my songs which totally blew my mind I have a meeting with him on tuesday and he want to see my song book. I mean this could be bigger for me I really always wanted to be in the music industry and ya I don't really have the most amazing voice and I cant really carry a full set but writing song is what I do best. And who know where this may lead a know. As for my school life lets just say my legacy is falling apart. So Ive kinda developed this alter Ego named Rogue, idk how it all happened but he's definitely a lot more of who I used to once upon a time. My psych analysis prof says that we all had duel personalities but only one really shows the other hides behind our sub-conscience and only reveals its self under certain conditions. For me its school thats my condition, its where Rogue comes out. When I get pulled into that world of partying and being crazy liven out the dream I cant help it I love living in the spot light. when i walk around campus and everyone know who I am that what I live for. Call me a bit self absorbed but thats what feeds my fire, which leads me to the problem. So when I get pulled into that alter ego bad things happen, like motor cycle racing on the freeway, or Rogue's hot 100 list which in my defense is a miracle guide for any college freshman guy. But Rogue is definitely a side of me that I don't particularly love. Next on my life agenda is the trouble Im having with a couple of my peeps. The first person means alot to me and I may have messed things up. All she tried to do was give me advise about what I needed to do with a situation Im in. It sucks cause she was like a mom to me and then I went and turn my back on her for a person who is so self absorbed that they really don't know I exist. It gets worst she's leaving the country in a week and Im not gonna have the chance to make things right with her. Uhhh what to do next on the agenda is the other person who is making me question our friendship. I mean we have been good friends for a while but this reoccurring theme keeps popping up, and it that the two of us don't fit together. Its sad cause we both have been trying fight the inevitable, that me and her weren't meant to be friends. I mean sometimes people in your life are just supposed to make an appearance and not be in the entire story ya know. I think that maybe the flame of our friendship is burning out, but its life right nothing ever last forever. Well till next time love one and all.

2010...

Life Is well life we have our ups and we have our downs, and at this moment in just in the middle. It has definitely been a long time since Ive pour my mind on this thing I call my blog but here goes nothing. So For the what three people that don't know I have a girl friend And her name is Brianna Gregory she is smart, funny, very open minded and goal orientated, she amazing. we have been officially dating for a month and a half I made it facebook official a week ago. Which is when all hell broke loose. But lets back tract for a bit so everything seemed so perfect school ended I graduated top of my class of course turn down the opportunity of a life time for a girl how shoot me down. Then I need a break for all the depressing things here in AZ and i went with my ace to Brothell, washington to visit my sister and her father which was an amazing trip of side of the fact that really y got to find out how crazy my friend really was. YIKES!!!! Oh so the girl that I was previously pining over went away for the summer so it was just me and Bri together for the majority of the summer we dated for a bit last summer but I though that I had a better connection with someone else and I cut her loose so that I wouldn't end up hurting her in the long run. So after like a week of spending ever waking moment with each other we decided that we are better together than apart. Fast forward a month and 11 days the old flame has returned home and Bri tells me that I need to cut her out as long as were together. Ok thats a bit much especially since me and plan were best friends ya know. Any whoo I told bri that I would never choose and well she didnt talk to me for about three days. Then today some one Keyed my car. Oh ya I so thought it was her but then I came to my senses she would never go that far. I drove out to her house and we talked about alot of stuff and things are ok again I guess. Were going to vegas together in a week hopefully I dont come back married that would suck, lol well maybe not. Till next time peace and love

Talk it out...

Hello everyone Im back, I need an out let for everything going on in my life. Well I have a lot on my mind so lets get started. First lets start off will family stuff ya my dad in engaged, Im happy for him. The chick he's marring is legit we didn't start off on the right foot but she cool now. Their planning a December wedding Im the best man hahaha priceless. Yep then they're moving to New York that part sucks well not them moving i could care less about that its just that I just got my room the way I like it now I have to pack it all up and start again. As for My other half of the family well lets just say were not speaking much these days, Im tired of being used by them so I 86 them out. Ahh as for work a lot has changed since the last time I posted, I no longer work at Marketside that job was a joke. Ya I got paid alot to do what i did but the management at that place was out of control. I took a Job at this really cool P.R. firm. Im a Junior Coordinator basically I book high priced after parties and regular parties and help plan them with my team. I really love this job, and Im really good at it too. Ive already book 6 events Im actually sitting in the LAX airport right now we had a team meeting at the new office in LA. Now Im on way home, my boss is leaving for this new office cause he lives here in Cali and travel every week for work. He wants me to come but I don't have the funds to live out here just yet, not even with my trust fund. Oh school is going great Ill be done pretty soon and then its grad school time. I got four acceptance letters ASU, San jose state, NYU, and Cal. I have till june 1st the choose my school, Im not sure thought where I want to go. Going to ASU would be the easy thing to do but Im not sure if its the best thing for me. Ive never been the kind of guy to settle and if I stay if feel like I would be. I have my reasons to go my first choice would be Cal and then I could transfer to Stanford when I go for my Ph.D. , but at the same time I dont want to leave behind everything I have going on here. And just so we are all clear a girl is not on my reasons to stay. There was a girl who could have gotten me to say but after a lot of thought and talking to my peeps I need to just let her go and move on. It will be hard but it'll be for the best. Its time I accept my destiny Ive never been a normal man, and I need to stand up and take my place at the top of the mountain. Oh and I started a new band this one is all my own Its called Winston and Epics I think were gonna change the name to "THE EPICS". We are a band a family and we share everything so everything should be equal. this week should be pretty busy Carly is in town for a little bit and I have a Date on friday night with a girl from my Chem class. So thats all I have for now but be ready for more updates soon.

Fin...

So for my final blog though I'd share one of the pieces that I wrote.

This isn't the end its just good by for now.

One day maybe ill find my way back, till then I just float on.

Wait For Me.

Look out to the horizon

A whole world lies beyond

The path of life shall guide me

And will swiftly move me on,

There's new things to discover

And many sights to see

But I hope you'll be waiting

Patiently waiting for me.

The road stretches before me

And I don't know how far,

And whatever may happen

Just remember who you are

If other try to change you,

Hold tight to who you wanna be

Ill return one day

I just hope you'll be there waiting for me.

Once Ive reached my limit

And I cant go on any more

I'll always have the memories

Of the good times we've had before

So when my journey ends

And I'm ready to break free

I hope that you'll be waiting there

Waiting there patiently for me.

12/31/09...

Attention to all my readers Decemember 31 will be the last time I will be blogging. My Wordpress, Myspace, And Facebook are comming down as well. I believe that we are all to locked into theses websites that we are forgetting how to actually connect with people in real life.
Thanks to all of you out there who read my blog, and made me keep writing. I may post one more blog but its not likly. Keep living the dream, I know I will.

Pillar...

Man this last week has been a total roller coaster. I'm trying to get ready for finals, all my friends who went away for school are back in town and everybody wants to kick it. My all time Nemesis did the unthinkable which in someways made me very angry. Oh so check this out back in the day we used to have foster kids and they were like family not even like we were a family. We had two girls Heather, and Shyann and my two bro Ronny, and Tony. So my brother my best friend the person I trust with my life Rko (Ronny) calls and tells me he ask his girlfriend to marry him. God I wanted to shoot him in the face, like why would any one want to get married now a days especially since more than half end in divorce. But as mad as I was at him, I was still super happy. Me and Ronny used to talk about having normal lives with normal families. We wanted to be the guys or father never were for us ya know. Neither one of us actually had any idea what or so called normal was. I'm glad though that he will have a special young lady in his life, and at least one of us can try and find that normalcy we both desire. Oh ya and I'm the best man at the wedding, and his fiance's friends are super hot. "BONUS"!!! OK so all the peeps are back in town it really was amazing to see everybody. Ive got like 600 pics from this week ill post some once I finished editing them. The old flame Carly was here, my boy Coi', Dasha, Ryan, Justin, the twins Staci, and Summer. It was the best all the original team back together. We drove up to Prescott, paid our respects to one of fallen members parents who also let us crash which was sick. For all of you who don't know one of our friends was killed by a drunk driver last year. He was driving home from a family members house and was hit by some drunken D-bag. He was a good kid and didn't deserve what happened to him. But that life ya know things just happen for no good reason. His mom was super stoked to see us all though idk it took my mind of everything that's going on in my own life. So back to my Nemesis, so as far as I can think back me and him having been going at it. Him wanting me to fall me wanting to see him crash and burn. Finally after years I guess the feud is over, he fell to the waist side. I cant say that I'm actually happy about it though. At first I was so happy about it I know that's pretty messed up but if you knew the hatred that brewed between us you'd understand. But now it just makes me sad, I mean all the times he called me out tryn to say I was the bad one and now hes gone. I wonder if he knew how many people looked up to him and loved him. He had everything in the palm of his hand. Id give anything to have people care about me like that and make me sad and angry to see him throw that all away. OK moving on so you know me Mr. always looking for change I think I want to put Australia back on the table, and the peace core, and last but not least going away to school. If I go away to school it would just be for a years considering that I only have one whole school year left. Idk Ive always been searching for that missing part of my life and I thought I finally found it, but now I'm not so sure. My littlest cousin is almost old enough for school, which mean that my bio-family will be packing up and going back east because my family is built on tradition and legacy. So she will have to misfortune of going to Eden Hall prep academy trust me when I say its a breeding ground for the snobs of America. I had to go there for a while before I couldn't take it any more. More so we moved to this god forsaken place lol. So Ive got a lot to think about, I don't wanna make a decision to fast. well that's it for now love and peace.

Blah...

Hello out there it definitely has been a while since my last blog update, sorry Ive been pretty busy. I think the last time I blogged I was just finishing midterms, any ways lets see idk not much has really gone on. Well there a few things, My full on emotional break down, me almost getting fired, and the whole Bri situation. Lets start with the first one shall we most of you think of me as a happy gregarious kind of guy. Ya OK me at all honestly I hate being around a lot of people, I'm always analyzing every situation, plus im slightly nuratic when im not 100% in control. In the psycology world there are two types of personalities, type A or type B. Type A people tend to display their emotions very easyly and often. They can be very agressive and seem careless. Type B people are mellow slow to anger, they try and rationalize bad situation to make them ok. they dont say whats on their minds, they also hold alot of things in. Type B people though have a minor glitch, there exploders. That mean you can push them and push them to their breaking point, but then they explode all their sadness and anger just come flying out. My psych teacher is doing evaluations on us right now, and Im a very reseerved person I have some dark secrets and things that to keep private. Well just say he pushed me to my limits and focus in alot of things that I need to deal with. Idk for some reason thought it unraveled my entire world, and that was not good. I pretty much went off the deep end, which led me to all most getting fired from my job. Ya so im already a toothpick away from loosing all control and my boss just happened to push to far. So I told him what I thought about him and my job. Ya bad move he sent me home and made me write a letter about how I wanted to keep my job. At first I didnt want to do it but I finally came to my senses and wrote it. He didnt fire me thank god believe it or not i knida like my job. During this whole situaton though there was one glimmer of light my very good friend Bri. If you know me well you know I dont tell alot of people how I feel. I keep my stuff to me my burdon to bare, but me and bri have been there for each other though some crazy times and I let her in to my little world. We were good together for about a minute cuz then I got a strong reality check by two people I love and will always love.
Oh and one other thing my mama, (she's not really my mom but i wish she was) called me a player, it made me laugh. but seriously though im so far from being a player is crazy, and yes I do crush alot but im no player. I like alot of girls but love only one. When I meet that girl she will know that she is the center of my universe, the queen of my castle, my best friend without question. Sorry P one day I may have to replace you. Love all ya peace.

Marvel...

When you look back on the last five years of your life was it everything you wanted it to be?Did you accomplish your goals, are you the person that you thought you would be? Do look back and have some regrets or are you totally satisfied with everything that took place? If I were to answer those questions it would be very mixed. When it comes to my goals I think that I did everything that I was gonna do. I graduated from High School a Year early, Im in college, and Im well on my way to being a psycologist. Do I look back and think that i should have done things differently not any more I definitely used to though. I used to look back and think about all the wild nights that i had and how much that actually stressed out my family. I thought about Carly and how I could have done things differently, but after putting everything down on paper I really wouldn't change a single thing. Ya I made some mistakes that have definitely closed alot of doors and made alot of thing harder but I still think that those events had to happen to help me see my true potential. Right now I know for a fact that I wont allow anything or anyone get in my way of what I want. I honestly think that's what is wrong with most of my friends they dont push themselves to their very limits they rather have somebody else do all the work for them and try to take the credit, then theres these one that don't really have any life aspirations beside working for their family or doing construction, and my female friend s who have the idea that they can just get married and become a stay at home wife. What a load of crock that is here my advise to all of you out there and you know who you are, so depending on others, and be your own person make your own way. Idk I got a serious reality check the other day I need to let go of the kid inside and become the power driven man I was meant to be. So right here right now im vowing that will be that man and all who doubt me will stand and marvel at my Greatness so you can either get out of my way now or be pushed out sooner rather then later. They say it lonely it the top but i want to be the judge of that. I Wont stop till I achieve my max potential. Stand back take in all that I am and MARVEL at the man before you.

Lion's Roar...

So today was one of those days that just starts off bad. Ahh were do I begin lets start with last night, so I went out with some friends had a great time then went home. So I get home and guess who happens to be at my house, Miss Denver (Carly) and Ariel. These two girls are by far my to closest peeps they know everything, every little secret about me. I knew Carly was gonna be in town but for some reason I thought it was gonna next week. She's here visiting here parents before they move back to Cape Cod. So it was nice to see them both well kind me and Ariel haven't really been on speaking terms since she screwed me over but thats the past so whatev. so since it still relatively early we hoped in the car and went to Denny's we stayed there for a long time we got caught up on all the stuff that we've missed and what not. It was really really really fun I must Admit, I say goodnight to my pals get home it still relatively early well for me atleast. I walk in the door get on the computer and start my usual activities of downloading music and movies and checking into all my email replying to all the emails I got. I finally black out about idk 5:30 am right. So about 8ish i get a phone call from my brother in arm Coi' hes also down here from frisco, he needs the spare key to his moms house cuz he locked himself out, no surprise there. So I throw on some cloths drive over there and give him the key. I go back home and try to get some rest only to be awaken by a text from another friend who coincidentally needs something. Then about a half an hour later I get a phone call from my uncle who needs me to go pick up my misbehaving little cousin. By this time Ive given up on sleeping, so for some reason I decide to go to Guitar shop and look for a New amp, Hey what do you know Another one of my loser friend txting me for something. I still went to the guitar store but my level of patience is running pretty low. I didn't find the amp I wanted but I did find the sweetest book it has all these sweet 70's songs. I go back home figure ill study for my class tonight so i get in my room pull out my course guide and full on shock and terror roll over my face. So I some how mixed up my weeks and thought that I was in week 4/10 in my class but in reality it was week 5/10. What does that all mean well week 5 is midterm week ya so with only about 4hour before my class I had to do a power session to make up for all the goofing of Ive been doing and what not. By this point of my day I'm a mess, I'm pissed off and one step from becoming a homicidal crazy person. Then oh the flood gates just open up my cell phone is blowing up, my house phone wont stop ringing and its all people looking for me. You could literally see the frustration level on my face. And some when in between tryn to cram for my midterm and doing all the other crap that I needed to do I just snapped. I didnt wanna deal with anyone I was telling my friends off yelling things that should never be said, blew up on a couple friends. They had it coming thought I'm tired of taking care of everyone some people just need to learn how to stand on there own to feet myself included. Any way my crap day ended with me getting a clutch "B" on my midT. So even though I didn't get to go and get my massage at dolce and have the relaxed day that I had planned it definitely could have been worst. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day my friends cant handle me when I'm ready to kill them all. Well that's it for now peace and love.

Its been a long time....

Well it seems that Ive been neglecting my blogging job so here's everything that has been going on in my life as of late. So I went to fall frenzy a couple weekends ago with my new pal Hobie. He's a pretty rad dude I must say but he is a bit a of playboy. As for the show it was uber wicked, Ive never had that much fun in my life. We had so much fun made a couple new friends it was all in all a good time. Oh so lets talk about school, ya what can I say I'm in deep trouble. So I'm in the honors Psych program and its killing me. Ive aways been the kind of person who was to smart for his own good, I never had to study never had to work hard everything came easy to me in school. Some how now I find myself lost not sure what going on I actually got a "D" on a quiz. OMG I almost kicked the bucket right there what am I supposed to do i never fail at anything. I feel like my plan is falling apart and there nothing I can do about it, but try and keep sain and work harder. I really thought about quiting but that just not me I don't quit, cuz that just what people want. I don't wanna work at some dead end job make no money or have to use my family to keep me afloat like so people I know. From a small child all Ive known is get an education, become a success. If I don't make this happen I wont just be letting my family down ill be letting myself down. I wont quit and I wont let anything stop me its my nindo. What else what else oh I turned 21 it was the best I go to spend my whole day with the people I love most.
And btw i would like to go on the record and say I'm not girl crazy even though it may seem as if I am. Yes I have a thing for a very special young lady but i also understand I'm not ready to settle down be domesticated. Its actually one of my fears, but one I will one day, and when that day comes ill go 100%. As for now I need to establish my legacy plus a wife isn't in my 5 year plan till year five so I still have four years. Back to my birthday it was amazing the only thing I wish that could have been different was the fact I didn't get to talk to my pal in Washington. So as for the future couple days I really got nothing going on but work and school. Well that it for now love and peace peeps.

Fall Frenzy is a go...

Heres the line up for all three days. Ill be there saturday and maybe sunday i just rebaught tickets.

Friday

Rob Thomas (1040pm-12am)

Jason Mraz (855-1015pm)
The B-52s (715-830pm )
Gavin Rossdale (6-655pm)
Colbie Caillat (5-545pm)
GATES OPEN AT 4PM

Saturday

Blink 182 (1030pm-12am)
Fall Out Boy (840-10pm )
Slightly Stoopid (655-810pm)
Pepper (510-625pm)
Anberlin (405-450pm)
Asher Roth (300-345pm)
Authority Zero (200-245pm)
GATES OPEN AT 1PM
Other acts to be added.

Sunday

Social Distortion (830-10pm)
Flogging Molly (630-8pm)
Ben Harper & Relentless (7430-6pm)
The Bravery (3-4pm)
Airborne Toxic Event (2-245pm)
Carolina Liar (1-145pm)
Slowpoke (12-1245pm)
GATES OPEN AT 11AM

Im Just Sayn...

So as many of you know I don't really have a problem speaking my mind, I could careless if people don't like me. I feel that if you want to be true to yourself you have to speak you mind and not hold things in. Ya as Ive gotten older Ive realized that you cant do that all the time some people around you cant handle the truth and you just have to let have there way so as to not cause mass over dramatics. Biting your tong sometimes is the only way to get out of bad situation but I'm just sayn. Really though this is pure honesty I wont talk behind any ones back if I have something to say or if you done something that bothers me I'm pretty quick to let you know, and that works for me. The only time that I wont say anything to a person is if I know the situation is just gonna get worst if I push it, but I still wont talk crap it takes to much effort and is a major waste of time I'm just sayn. Moving on, so this Australia thing is becoming more and more of an issue each day. So a couple months ago no one would have cared what I did if I left One like 2 people would have even noticed, now it seems like everyone and there mom thinks its a bad move. Everyone is try to scared me out of it and telling me that they need me, well that a load of bull if you ask me. Where were any of those people when I was having a mass melt down about my gramma or when Carly and me went south. OK ya some of you nay sayers out there make since Australia is far away and is a big jump, but no one understand how I feel. IN my family every thing is a competition for who is the best, and I'm loosing bad. When my dad was 21 He was graduating from Columbia, my aunt was Going to Wharton, my uncle was getting his cisco license. All of them had good jobs and had travel the world. It sucks that i have to compete with them all the time, I'm totally happy with how things are going for me I'm doing my thing at my own pace and I'm stoked about that. When they look at me though I'm a failure I'm no where near there level and they think that I'm not going any where to me Australia is an escape from all the pressure. Like ill be thousands of mile away and they wont have any input on my life once so ever. I just wanna be Winston Knighton, they have made it very clear I'm not White. I wish they could see that Ill be that guy, but I just have to do it my own way. Believe it!!! Ya so maybe I need to rethink this move idk lots of thing need to changes to keep me here though. Oh I do have some good news there maybe a potential queen for my castle ill post about her another time. Liven the dream "Be You, Be True, Be Legit" one love I'm out.

Should I stay or Should I go?...

So for all of you out there who obsess with my life and don't already know I'm looking to move. Yep finally after 21 years of being taken care of i want to be out on my own away from my family. Time to be independent ya know, well there just one catch. Ready for it I'm looking to go to Australia. Yeah its a pretty big jump there wont be any coming home for dinner that's for sure. Its a big step for me but i thought its what i wanted now I'm not so sure. I mean its been my life dream to go there and live but that its becoming a reality its kinda intimidating ya know. Plus when I made the plan to take of I was in a bad place I wasn't happy with everything in my life and thought that I could run from all the thing that were hurting me ya know. Ya ya ya i know you cant run from you problems I know. Plus there's other stuff like I really didn't think of what I would be leaving behind like friends im not really gonna miss my fam that much mostly cuz I don't see them much now. Ok so tonight I had dinner with my best friend in the entire would love her more than anything (mess with her and ill have you killed its not a joke either )ya know and then i realized that we wont be able to do that if I leave we wont have drive-in movie nites, silly photos, ice skating trips, it'll all be over. And that sucks that's the clincher the pebble on the scale the side that keeping me here. Let me clarify she isn't the only reason that was just an example that all the people who I care about and love in my life will be here in the states. PLus the whole school thing i really want to finish unlike some poeple i know who think school should last forever. Money to like american dollar there is worth crap so i basiclly need to save up about 4grand to go so i can live while im there to put it in a way people can under stand that 4g with convert to about 2.7g ya i need make that last for 4 months. hahah that would be an issue we all know that i love the finer things in life. Now on the reverse end all the people who I cant stand and loathe will be here and ill be way far far away over there, that in its self is a bonus. Honestly this will probably be the biggest decision ill have to make. The ticket does have a return date with would be in July I wanted to come back in September if I came back but that is no longer an option cuz my ticket is an open ended ticket so I have to come back whenever i can get a seat. Ya Problem MAJOR September is the beginning of summer there. During the summer its about 125 degrees on average ya that sucks, but because it so hot every one leave to Perth or Sidney. I need to get a plane from Kalgoorlie to Perth to Sidney which will be near impossible. So if I come home it'll be earlier that I wanted. So I have alot of thinking to do ya know Should I stay or should I go I'm Not really sure any more but I do know what my deciding factor will be. Living the dream till next time "Be You, Be True, Be Legit" one love im out.

P.s. heres my flight plan for if I choice to go.


Leave
Sun, Mar 28
United Airlines 516
Depart:
7:43pm
Arrive:
9:45pm
Phoenix, AZ (PHX)San Francisco, CA (SFO)
3 stops
Economy
2hr 2min
Airbus A320

Change planes. Time between flights: 0hr 58min
United Airlines 863
Depart:
10:43pm
Arrive:
7:25am
San Francisco, CA (SFO)Sydney, Australia (SYD)

14hr 42min
Boeing 747
Change Airline. Time between flights: 4hr 35min
Qantas 577
Depart:
12:00pm
Arrive:
1:55pm
Sydney, Australia (SYD)Perth, Australia (PER)

4hr 55min
Airbus A330
Change planes. Time between flights: 3hr 30min
Qantas 1896 operated by QANTASLINK - NATIONAL JET SYSTEMS
Depart:
5:25pm
Arrive:
6:30pm
Perth, Australia (PER)Kalgoorlie, Australia (KGI)

1hr 5min
Boeing 717 Total duration: 31hr 47min
This flight arrives two days later.

Return
Thu, Jul 15
Qantas 1065
Depart:
7:10pm
Arrive:
8:20pm
Kalgoorlie, Australia (KGI)Perth, Australia (PER)
3 stops

1hr 10min
Boeing 737
Change planes. Time between flights: 3hr 55min
Qantas 568
Depart:
12:15am
Arrive:
6:15am
Perth, Australia (PER)Sydney, Australia (SYD)


4hr 0min
Airbus A330
Change Airline. Time between flights: 7hr 40min
United Airlines 840
Depart:
1:55pm
Arrive:
10:19am
Sydney, Australia (SYD)Los Angeles, CA (LAX)

13hr 24min
Boeing 747

Change planes. Time between flights: 2hr 42min
United Airlines 6522 operated by UNITED EXPRESS/SKYWEST AIRLINES
Depart:
1:01pm
Arrive:
2:22pm
Los Angeles, CA (LAX)Phoenix, AZ (PHX)

1hr 21min
Canadair
Total duration: 34hr 12min WTF MATE that a bit long lol

Imagine that...

Things, lately everything seems to be spinning out of control. like just when I think that I have everything in balance something else land on my plat to throw me off once again. I used to have this amazing plan and every thing was very scripted and precises no room for error or miscalculation it was perfect. Now though it seems that my plan is out the window, I don't know if I'm going or coming and i hate the feeling. You know that feeling it the one when you feel like you've lost control of the ship and now your heading in an unknown direction. I keep thinking that things will get better but it getting hard to keep that smile on my face when I know I sinking. That leads me to my newest adventure Ive pretty much just want go leave start over ya know. I bought a ticket Australia its not till march so i have some time to save up some cash and what not. My family really doesn't care that I go they don't really pay much attention to my craziness anyways. My dad think it could be good for me. Ive been doing a lot of research and if i do go I wont be traveling back here to the states any time soon. I would get a work visa which last for a year, while down there I can apply for my citizenship. Apparently its really easy to get if here come the downside I would have to give up my citizenship here as an American. I could apply for dual citizenship but it would take longer than a year for me to get it. Traveling back here would cost me way to much money and the fact that i would only here for a couple month till it went through make it seem pointless. So I would be a full legal Australian. I would miss it here dont get me wrong, Ive got a lot here the most amazing best friend, she's my soul friend. Ive got the most amazing crew of peep Ive ever had we've got each other back till the end. Ive got school and i love that but i just feel drained. Idk what I want to do any more dah I wish I could just clear my mind and make a decide what it is that I want. Right now I do know that that only a couple thing are holding me here and I love them enough to stay but for how long. It been said you cant run from the man in the mirror maybe there right but i just need to find out on my own.

One Day At A Time...

Sometimes it takes a real kick in the pants to get back to reality. I had a pretty crappy week last week and let me say this people can not be trusted. Ok so now that this person me absolutely nothing to me I feel ok telling the gist of the story. So theres this girl I grew up with I mean we go back to before Carly even Ya INTENSE. Any ways we are like good close friends well at least we were ya know. I cared about her alot just cause we be so close and we kinda sorta have a history together. Any ways she called me up with this sad sob story about her Fiance leaving her blah blah blah LIES but we'll get to that. Any ways she needed help and superman came to save the day. Ya bad she total burned me i now officially on the record hate her. I wouldn't spit on her to put her out if she was on fire. See i guess i have the urge to save people whether it be a good idea or not. YA so that was one of the things i dealt with my silly father dropped the hammer on me and we got into a fight cuz of his bimbo girlfriends lol, that's rude she not a bimbo she just not all there. Ya but i was pretty much on the edge of going on a rampage im totally ok now Ive released all that crap from my mind and focused it into something new. I started designing my own jewelry for my line which is pretty cool im pretty stoked about it. Yep that it for me I will say thanks for every one worrying about me I was in a really bad place last week but you guys and gals and sunflower Kept me afloat thanks for being my safety raft. Cuz I definitely had some moment were I was thinking of doing some not so nice things so thanks for be my peeps. "Live free, play hard" LEGIT"09"

The End of Summer..

Well the end of summer is here for some of us, namely my school age pals. I guess this summer was fun, It had it up and downs that was for sure. We lost some friends, but they weren't true friend to begin with we made some new friends and strengthened the bond we have with true peeps. Personally I'm glad to be going back to school soon, to me it just means ill be one step closer to being the guy I wanna be. I do wanna take a sec and give my best wishes to my friend Michelle I'm gonna miss you mama, you and I have taken each other to the edge and back. We have had each other back in good time and not so bueno times. I love you with all my heart and I hope you all the happiness in the world back home. Remember I'm only a phone call, a plane ticket, and an hours drive from the airport away if you need me. Now moving on this week has really been a crappy one. First off I got stuck baby sitting the spawn of Satan aka My little cousin Amir. This kid give bad a whole new meaning, I mean he is pure evil so since i couldn't find a babysitter to watch him i had to take him into work with me. So i sit him in our break room rent him a movie, got him all these snacks and what not and he totally seems fine, next thing i know the little rug rat has put a book in the microwave and its on fire ya. Let me just say my new boss was less then thrilled. ya so now i will never watch, take care off or babysit a child under 8 again. Oh then my grandma went back into the hospital ya she may have an infection in her pick line which is a very bad thing. For all those who don't know a pick line is basically life for a person with one if its out the person is at a serious risk for well death cuz it usually is their only source for nourishment. But this is like the third time this has happened. all my family is up at the hospital i don't go, cuz i have coping issues and hospitals just depress the crap out of me. Don't feel bad for me that doesn't really help I'm like to use the denial point of view. If i just act like everything is fine then they will be. On a lighter note I went out to the drive-ins on Saturday after work that was stellar we saw G.I. Joe it was funny very predictable but still funny. I had to take the drivers class for getting my speeding ticket this morning that was fun and I'm not being sarcastic either. I'm not even joking there were like ten gorgeous girls in the class it was like heaven to me mostly cuz my version of heaven on earth would be me surrounded by a whole bunch of good looking girls. So besides that's nothing else is new, working like crazy, getting ready for school to go back in session. Oh i did start Dj'ing again Ive done a couple of parties thus far i really enjoyed being behind the turn table and getting my groove on. Well that's all for now,"BE TRUE, BE YOU, BE LEGIT"

Rainy day...

This is one of my original poems hope you like it.

Rainy Day

by

Winston K.

When it rain it pours on this heart of mine

those sunny days become hard to find

nothing but thunder to echo in my head

all of those word left unsaid

I wish this storm would just go away

I just want things to be ok

maybe its me, maybe I have to change

let go of the past, let go of the pain

let go of the things that drive me insain

I know in the end ill all be fine

I know that my day will come, and the sun will shine.

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.

Starting Over....

It funny how  people say that when something sad or tragic, or even amazing, momentous happens in our life that you'll never be the same. You will never be that guy or girl that you were before that one moment that changed everything. I personally believe  that that is a good thing for the most part. I mean everything that life throws at you is a learning experience ya know you jut gotta take the good with  the bad and role with the punches. Me and Carly finally said enough is enough after all that we had been through together but unlike time before where I would miss hr like crazy and wish i could run back to here this time its totally different. Im not lost with out her, Im not bored out of my mind. I guess i learn the lesson finally and i can move on. I wish that certain other people I know could learn from my mistakes and move on too but everyone has to follow their own.... shall we call it life manual. Their guide to a better them. Idk anyway right now im in like this artsy farsty mode Iv been sketching out some new designs, painted this really sweet picture i gave it to my friend nicole as going away present. Oh got back in the studio recorded this song that was basically the best thing ever not gonna lie lol. besides that really it the same old same old, work and hangen w the peepulation lol. It just me starting over one again actually im not starting over this time, ive learn frm my mistake and now i can continue on down the freeway of life. Till next time bloggers "BE YOU, BE TRUE, BE LEGIT"