Marvel...

When you look back on the last five years of your life was it everything you wanted it to be?Did you accomplish your goals, are you the person that you thought you would be? Do look back and have some regrets or are you totally satisfied with everything that took place? If I were to answer those questions it would be very mixed. When it comes to my goals I think that I did everything that I was gonna do. I graduated from High School a Year early, Im in college, and Im well on my way to being a psycologist. Do I look back and think that i should have done things differently not any more I definitely used to though. I used to look back and think about all the wild nights that i had and how much that actually stressed out my family. I thought about Carly and how I could have done things differently, but after putting everything down on paper I really wouldn't change a single thing. Ya I made some mistakes that have definitely closed alot of doors and made alot of thing harder but I still think that those events had to happen to help me see my true potential. Right now I know for a fact that I wont allow anything or anyone get in my way of what I want. I honestly think that's what is wrong with most of my friends they dont push themselves to their very limits they rather have somebody else do all the work for them and try to take the credit, then theres these one that don't really have any life aspirations beside working for their family or doing construction, and my female friend s who have the idea that they can just get married and become a stay at home wife. What a load of crock that is here my advise to all of you out there and you know who you are, so depending on others, and be your own person make your own way. Idk I got a serious reality check the other day I need to let go of the kid inside and become the power driven man I was meant to be. So right here right now im vowing that will be that man and all who doubt me will stand and marvel at my Greatness so you can either get out of my way now or be pushed out sooner rather then later. They say it lonely it the top but i want to be the judge of that. I Wont stop till I achieve my max potential. Stand back take in all that I am and MARVEL at the man before you.

Lion's Roar...

So today was one of those days that just starts off bad. Ahh were do I begin lets start with last night, so I went out with some friends had a great time then went home. So I get home and guess who happens to be at my house, Miss Denver (Carly) and Ariel. These two girls are by far my to closest peeps they know everything, every little secret about me. I knew Carly was gonna be in town but for some reason I thought it was gonna next week. She's here visiting here parents before they move back to Cape Cod. So it was nice to see them both well kind me and Ariel haven't really been on speaking terms since she screwed me over but thats the past so whatev. so since it still relatively early we hoped in the car and went to Denny's we stayed there for a long time we got caught up on all the stuff that we've missed and what not. It was really really really fun I must Admit, I say goodnight to my pals get home it still relatively early well for me atleast. I walk in the door get on the computer and start my usual activities of downloading music and movies and checking into all my email replying to all the emails I got. I finally black out about idk 5:30 am right. So about 8ish i get a phone call from my brother in arm Coi' hes also down here from frisco, he needs the spare key to his moms house cuz he locked himself out, no surprise there. So I throw on some cloths drive over there and give him the key. I go back home and try to get some rest only to be awaken by a text from another friend who coincidentally needs something. Then about a half an hour later I get a phone call from my uncle who needs me to go pick up my misbehaving little cousin. By this time Ive given up on sleeping, so for some reason I decide to go to Guitar shop and look for a New amp, Hey what do you know Another one of my loser friend txting me for something. I still went to the guitar store but my level of patience is running pretty low. I didn't find the amp I wanted but I did find the sweetest book it has all these sweet 70's songs. I go back home figure ill study for my class tonight so i get in my room pull out my course guide and full on shock and terror roll over my face. So I some how mixed up my weeks and thought that I was in week 4/10 in my class but in reality it was week 5/10. What does that all mean well week 5 is midterm week ya so with only about 4hour before my class I had to do a power session to make up for all the goofing of Ive been doing and what not. By this point of my day I'm a mess, I'm pissed off and one step from becoming a homicidal crazy person. Then oh the flood gates just open up my cell phone is blowing up, my house phone wont stop ringing and its all people looking for me. You could literally see the frustration level on my face. And some when in between tryn to cram for my midterm and doing all the other crap that I needed to do I just snapped. I didnt wanna deal with anyone I was telling my friends off yelling things that should never be said, blew up on a couple friends. They had it coming thought I'm tired of taking care of everyone some people just need to learn how to stand on there own to feet myself included. Any way my crap day ended with me getting a clutch "B" on my midT. So even though I didn't get to go and get my massage at dolce and have the relaxed day that I had planned it definitely could have been worst. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day my friends cant handle me when I'm ready to kill them all. Well that's it for now peace and love.

Its been a long time....

Well it seems that Ive been neglecting my blogging job so here's everything that has been going on in my life as of late. So I went to fall frenzy a couple weekends ago with my new pal Hobie. He's a pretty rad dude I must say but he is a bit a of playboy. As for the show it was uber wicked, Ive never had that much fun in my life. We had so much fun made a couple new friends it was all in all a good time. Oh so lets talk about school, ya what can I say I'm in deep trouble. So I'm in the honors Psych program and its killing me. Ive aways been the kind of person who was to smart for his own good, I never had to study never had to work hard everything came easy to me in school. Some how now I find myself lost not sure what going on I actually got a "D" on a quiz. OMG I almost kicked the bucket right there what am I supposed to do i never fail at anything. I feel like my plan is falling apart and there nothing I can do about it, but try and keep sain and work harder. I really thought about quiting but that just not me I don't quit, cuz that just what people want. I don't wanna work at some dead end job make no money or have to use my family to keep me afloat like so people I know. From a small child all Ive known is get an education, become a success. If I don't make this happen I wont just be letting my family down ill be letting myself down. I wont quit and I wont let anything stop me its my nindo. What else what else oh I turned 21 it was the best I go to spend my whole day with the people I love most.
And btw i would like to go on the record and say I'm not girl crazy even though it may seem as if I am. Yes I have a thing for a very special young lady but i also understand I'm not ready to settle down be domesticated. Its actually one of my fears, but one I will one day, and when that day comes ill go 100%. As for now I need to establish my legacy plus a wife isn't in my 5 year plan till year five so I still have four years. Back to my birthday it was amazing the only thing I wish that could have been different was the fact I didn't get to talk to my pal in Washington. So as for the future couple days I really got nothing going on but work and school. Well that it for now love and peace peeps.