Should I stay or Should I go?...

So for all of you out there who obsess with my life and don't already know I'm looking to move. Yep finally after 21 years of being taken care of i want to be out on my own away from my family. Time to be independent ya know, well there just one catch. Ready for it I'm looking to go to Australia. Yeah its a pretty big jump there wont be any coming home for dinner that's for sure. Its a big step for me but i thought its what i wanted now I'm not so sure. I mean its been my life dream to go there and live but that its becoming a reality its kinda intimidating ya know. Plus when I made the plan to take of I was in a bad place I wasn't happy with everything in my life and thought that I could run from all the thing that were hurting me ya know. Ya ya ya i know you cant run from you problems I know. Plus there's other stuff like I really didn't think of what I would be leaving behind like friends im not really gonna miss my fam that much mostly cuz I don't see them much now. Ok so tonight I had dinner with my best friend in the entire would love her more than anything (mess with her and ill have you killed its not a joke either )ya know and then i realized that we wont be able to do that if I leave we wont have drive-in movie nites, silly photos, ice skating trips, it'll all be over. And that sucks that's the clincher the pebble on the scale the side that keeping me here. Let me clarify she isn't the only reason that was just an example that all the people who I care about and love in my life will be here in the states. PLus the whole school thing i really want to finish unlike some poeple i know who think school should last forever. Money to like american dollar there is worth crap so i basiclly need to save up about 4grand to go so i can live while im there to put it in a way people can under stand that 4g with convert to about 2.7g ya i need make that last for 4 months. hahah that would be an issue we all know that i love the finer things in life. Now on the reverse end all the people who I cant stand and loathe will be here and ill be way far far away over there, that in its self is a bonus. Honestly this will probably be the biggest decision ill have to make. The ticket does have a return date with would be in July I wanted to come back in September if I came back but that is no longer an option cuz my ticket is an open ended ticket so I have to come back whenever i can get a seat. Ya Problem MAJOR September is the beginning of summer there. During the summer its about 125 degrees on average ya that sucks, but because it so hot every one leave to Perth or Sidney. I need to get a plane from Kalgoorlie to Perth to Sidney which will be near impossible. So if I come home it'll be earlier that I wanted. So I have alot of thinking to do ya know Should I stay or should I go I'm Not really sure any more but I do know what my deciding factor will be. Living the dream till next time "Be You, Be True, Be Legit" one love im out.

P.s. heres my flight plan for if I choice to go.


Leave
Sun, Mar 28
United Airlines 516
Depart:
7:43pm
Arrive:
9:45pm
Phoenix, AZ (PHX)San Francisco, CA (SFO)
3 stops
Economy
2hr 2min
Airbus A320

Change planes. Time between flights: 0hr 58min
United Airlines 863
Depart:
10:43pm
Arrive:
7:25am
San Francisco, CA (SFO)Sydney, Australia (SYD)

14hr 42min
Boeing 747
Change Airline. Time between flights: 4hr 35min
Qantas 577
Depart:
12:00pm
Arrive:
1:55pm
Sydney, Australia (SYD)Perth, Australia (PER)

4hr 55min
Airbus A330
Change planes. Time between flights: 3hr 30min
Qantas 1896 operated by QANTASLINK - NATIONAL JET SYSTEMS
Depart:
5:25pm
Arrive:
6:30pm
Perth, Australia (PER)Kalgoorlie, Australia (KGI)

1hr 5min
Boeing 717 Total duration: 31hr 47min
This flight arrives two days later.

Return
Thu, Jul 15
Qantas 1065
Depart:
7:10pm
Arrive:
8:20pm
Kalgoorlie, Australia (KGI)Perth, Australia (PER)
3 stops

1hr 10min
Boeing 737
Change planes. Time between flights: 3hr 55min
Qantas 568
Depart:
12:15am
Arrive:
6:15am
Perth, Australia (PER)Sydney, Australia (SYD)


4hr 0min
Airbus A330
Change Airline. Time between flights: 7hr 40min
United Airlines 840
Depart:
1:55pm
Arrive:
10:19am
Sydney, Australia (SYD)Los Angeles, CA (LAX)

13hr 24min
Boeing 747

Change planes. Time between flights: 2hr 42min
United Airlines 6522 operated by UNITED EXPRESS/SKYWEST AIRLINES
Depart:
1:01pm
Arrive:
2:22pm
Los Angeles, CA (LAX)Phoenix, AZ (PHX)

1hr 21min
Canadair
Total duration: 34hr 12min WTF MATE that a bit long lol

Imagine that...

Things, lately everything seems to be spinning out of control. like just when I think that I have everything in balance something else land on my plat to throw me off once again. I used to have this amazing plan and every thing was very scripted and precises no room for error or miscalculation it was perfect. Now though it seems that my plan is out the window, I don't know if I'm going or coming and i hate the feeling. You know that feeling it the one when you feel like you've lost control of the ship and now your heading in an unknown direction. I keep thinking that things will get better but it getting hard to keep that smile on my face when I know I sinking. That leads me to my newest adventure Ive pretty much just want go leave start over ya know. I bought a ticket Australia its not till march so i have some time to save up some cash and what not. My family really doesn't care that I go they don't really pay much attention to my craziness anyways. My dad think it could be good for me. Ive been doing a lot of research and if i do go I wont be traveling back here to the states any time soon. I would get a work visa which last for a year, while down there I can apply for my citizenship. Apparently its really easy to get if here come the downside I would have to give up my citizenship here as an American. I could apply for dual citizenship but it would take longer than a year for me to get it. Traveling back here would cost me way to much money and the fact that i would only here for a couple month till it went through make it seem pointless. So I would be a full legal Australian. I would miss it here dont get me wrong, Ive got a lot here the most amazing best friend, she's my soul friend. Ive got the most amazing crew of peep Ive ever had we've got each other back till the end. Ive got school and i love that but i just feel drained. Idk what I want to do any more dah I wish I could just clear my mind and make a decide what it is that I want. Right now I do know that that only a couple thing are holding me here and I love them enough to stay but for how long. It been said you cant run from the man in the mirror maybe there right but i just need to find out on my own.

One Day At A Time...

Sometimes it takes a real kick in the pants to get back to reality. I had a pretty crappy week last week and let me say this people can not be trusted. Ok so now that this person me absolutely nothing to me I feel ok telling the gist of the story. So theres this girl I grew up with I mean we go back to before Carly even Ya INTENSE. Any ways we are like good close friends well at least we were ya know. I cared about her alot just cause we be so close and we kinda sorta have a history together. Any ways she called me up with this sad sob story about her Fiance leaving her blah blah blah LIES but we'll get to that. Any ways she needed help and superman came to save the day. Ya bad she total burned me i now officially on the record hate her. I wouldn't spit on her to put her out if she was on fire. See i guess i have the urge to save people whether it be a good idea or not. YA so that was one of the things i dealt with my silly father dropped the hammer on me and we got into a fight cuz of his bimbo girlfriends lol, that's rude she not a bimbo she just not all there. Ya but i was pretty much on the edge of going on a rampage im totally ok now Ive released all that crap from my mind and focused it into something new. I started designing my own jewelry for my line which is pretty cool im pretty stoked about it. Yep that it for me I will say thanks for every one worrying about me I was in a really bad place last week but you guys and gals and sunflower Kept me afloat thanks for being my safety raft. Cuz I definitely had some moment were I was thinking of doing some not so nice things so thanks for be my peeps. "Live free, play hard" LEGIT"09"

The End of Summer..

Well the end of summer is here for some of us, namely my school age pals. I guess this summer was fun, It had it up and downs that was for sure. We lost some friends, but they weren't true friend to begin with we made some new friends and strengthened the bond we have with true peeps. Personally I'm glad to be going back to school soon, to me it just means ill be one step closer to being the guy I wanna be. I do wanna take a sec and give my best wishes to my friend Michelle I'm gonna miss you mama, you and I have taken each other to the edge and back. We have had each other back in good time and not so bueno times. I love you with all my heart and I hope you all the happiness in the world back home. Remember I'm only a phone call, a plane ticket, and an hours drive from the airport away if you need me. Now moving on this week has really been a crappy one. First off I got stuck baby sitting the spawn of Satan aka My little cousin Amir. This kid give bad a whole new meaning, I mean he is pure evil so since i couldn't find a babysitter to watch him i had to take him into work with me. So i sit him in our break room rent him a movie, got him all these snacks and what not and he totally seems fine, next thing i know the little rug rat has put a book in the microwave and its on fire ya. Let me just say my new boss was less then thrilled. ya so now i will never watch, take care off or babysit a child under 8 again. Oh then my grandma went back into the hospital ya she may have an infection in her pick line which is a very bad thing. For all those who don't know a pick line is basically life for a person with one if its out the person is at a serious risk for well death cuz it usually is their only source for nourishment. But this is like the third time this has happened. all my family is up at the hospital i don't go, cuz i have coping issues and hospitals just depress the crap out of me. Don't feel bad for me that doesn't really help I'm like to use the denial point of view. If i just act like everything is fine then they will be. On a lighter note I went out to the drive-ins on Saturday after work that was stellar we saw G.I. Joe it was funny very predictable but still funny. I had to take the drivers class for getting my speeding ticket this morning that was fun and I'm not being sarcastic either. I'm not even joking there were like ten gorgeous girls in the class it was like heaven to me mostly cuz my version of heaven on earth would be me surrounded by a whole bunch of good looking girls. So besides that's nothing else is new, working like crazy, getting ready for school to go back in session. Oh i did start Dj'ing again Ive done a couple of parties thus far i really enjoyed being behind the turn table and getting my groove on. Well that's all for now,"BE TRUE, BE YOU, BE LEGIT"