Imagine that...

Things, lately everything seems to be spinning out of control. like just when I think that I have everything in balance something else land on my plat to throw me off once again. I used to have this amazing plan and every thing was very scripted and precises no room for error or miscalculation it was perfect. Now though it seems that my plan is out the window, I don't know if I'm going or coming and i hate the feeling. You know that feeling it the one when you feel like you've lost control of the ship and now your heading in an unknown direction. I keep thinking that things will get better but it getting hard to keep that smile on my face when I know I sinking. That leads me to my newest adventure Ive pretty much just want go leave start over ya know. I bought a ticket Australia its not till march so i have some time to save up some cash and what not. My family really doesn't care that I go they don't really pay much attention to my craziness anyways. My dad think it could be good for me. Ive been doing a lot of research and if i do go I wont be traveling back here to the states any time soon. I would get a work visa which last for a year, while down there I can apply for my citizenship. Apparently its really easy to get if here come the downside I would have to give up my citizenship here as an American. I could apply for dual citizenship but it would take longer than a year for me to get it. Traveling back here would cost me way to much money and the fact that i would only here for a couple month till it went through make it seem pointless. So I would be a full legal Australian. I would miss it here dont get me wrong, Ive got a lot here the most amazing best friend, she's my soul friend. Ive got the most amazing crew of peep Ive ever had we've got each other back till the end. Ive got school and i love that but i just feel drained. Idk what I want to do any more dah I wish I could just clear my mind and make a decide what it is that I want. Right now I do know that that only a couple thing are holding me here and I love them enough to stay but for how long. It been said you cant run from the man in the mirror maybe there right but i just need to find out on my own.

One Day At A Time...

Sometimes it takes a real kick in the pants to get back to reality. I had a pretty crappy week last week and let me say this people can not be trusted. Ok so now that this person me absolutely nothing to me I feel ok telling the gist of the story. So theres this girl I grew up with I mean we go back to before Carly even Ya INTENSE. Any ways we are like good close friends well at least we were ya know. I cared about her alot just cause we be so close and we kinda sorta have a history together. Any ways she called me up with this sad sob story about her Fiance leaving her blah blah blah LIES but we'll get to that. Any ways she needed help and superman came to save the day. Ya bad she total burned me i now officially on the record hate her. I wouldn't spit on her to put her out if she was on fire. See i guess i have the urge to save people whether it be a good idea or not. YA so that was one of the things i dealt with my silly father dropped the hammer on me and we got into a fight cuz of his bimbo girlfriends lol, that's rude she not a bimbo she just not all there. Ya but i was pretty much on the edge of going on a rampage im totally ok now Ive released all that crap from my mind and focused it into something new. I started designing my own jewelry for my line which is pretty cool im pretty stoked about it. Yep that it for me I will say thanks for every one worrying about me I was in a really bad place last week but you guys and gals and sunflower Kept me afloat thanks for being my safety raft. Cuz I definitely had some moment were I was thinking of doing some not so nice things so thanks for be my peeps. "Live free, play hard" LEGIT"09"

The End of Summer..

Well the end of summer is here for some of us, namely my school age pals. I guess this summer was fun, It had it up and downs that was for sure. We lost some friends, but they weren't true friend to begin with we made some new friends and strengthened the bond we have with true peeps. Personally I'm glad to be going back to school soon, to me it just means ill be one step closer to being the guy I wanna be. I do wanna take a sec and give my best wishes to my friend Michelle I'm gonna miss you mama, you and I have taken each other to the edge and back. We have had each other back in good time and not so bueno times. I love you with all my heart and I hope you all the happiness in the world back home. Remember I'm only a phone call, a plane ticket, and an hours drive from the airport away if you need me. Now moving on this week has really been a crappy one. First off I got stuck baby sitting the spawn of Satan aka My little cousin Amir. This kid give bad a whole new meaning, I mean he is pure evil so since i couldn't find a babysitter to watch him i had to take him into work with me. So i sit him in our break room rent him a movie, got him all these snacks and what not and he totally seems fine, next thing i know the little rug rat has put a book in the microwave and its on fire ya. Let me just say my new boss was less then thrilled. ya so now i will never watch, take care off or babysit a child under 8 again. Oh then my grandma went back into the hospital ya she may have an infection in her pick line which is a very bad thing. For all those who don't know a pick line is basically life for a person with one if its out the person is at a serious risk for well death cuz it usually is their only source for nourishment. But this is like the third time this has happened. all my family is up at the hospital i don't go, cuz i have coping issues and hospitals just depress the crap out of me. Don't feel bad for me that doesn't really help I'm like to use the denial point of view. If i just act like everything is fine then they will be. On a lighter note I went out to the drive-ins on Saturday after work that was stellar we saw G.I. Joe it was funny very predictable but still funny. I had to take the drivers class for getting my speeding ticket this morning that was fun and I'm not being sarcastic either. I'm not even joking there were like ten gorgeous girls in the class it was like heaven to me mostly cuz my version of heaven on earth would be me surrounded by a whole bunch of good looking girls. So besides that's nothing else is new, working like crazy, getting ready for school to go back in session. Oh i did start Dj'ing again Ive done a couple of parties thus far i really enjoyed being behind the turn table and getting my groove on. Well that's all for now,"BE TRUE, BE YOU, BE LEGIT"

Rainy day...

This is one of my original poems hope you like it.

Rainy Day

by

Winston K.

When it rain it pours on this heart of mine

those sunny days become hard to find

nothing but thunder to echo in my head

all of those word left unsaid

I wish this storm would just go away

I just want things to be ok

maybe its me, maybe I have to change

let go of the past, let go of the pain

let go of the things that drive me insain

I know in the end ill all be fine

I know that my day will come, and the sun will shine.

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.

Starting Over....

It funny how  people say that when something sad or tragic, or even amazing, momentous happens in our life that you'll never be the same. You will never be that guy or girl that you were before that one moment that changed everything. I personally believe  that that is a good thing for the most part. I mean everything that life throws at you is a learning experience ya know you jut gotta take the good with  the bad and role with the punches. Me and Carly finally said enough is enough after all that we had been through together but unlike time before where I would miss hr like crazy and wish i could run back to here this time its totally different. Im not lost with out her, Im not bored out of my mind. I guess i learn the lesson finally and i can move on. I wish that certain other people I know could learn from my mistakes and move on too but everyone has to follow their own.... shall we call it life manual. Their guide to a better them. Idk anyway right now im in like this artsy farsty mode Iv been sketching out some new designs, painted this really sweet picture i gave it to my friend nicole as going away present. Oh got back in the studio recorded this song that was basically the best thing ever not gonna lie lol. besides that really it the same old same old, work and hangen w the peepulation lol. It just me starting over one again actually im not starting over this time, ive learn frm my mistake and now i can continue on down the freeway of life. Till next time bloggers "BE YOU, BE TRUE, BE LEGIT"

All we have...

When things go bad life and you get down your to your friends for comfort and advise and support. Friends can truly be lifesavers. Some people take that relationship for granted giving it the dime a dozen feel. But if you have a true friend(s) then you know that that's not true. A true friend is there for you when you crash and burn, there right there to congratulate you on a job well done. They stay up all night when you seem to be in crisis mode major, they never give you the "I told you so". That's a true friend, and with out our friends who would we really be. I know without my friends I wouldn't be here, and I would barely make it through the day. Im glad to have the friends I have and I appreciate all that they do for me. For all those who are close to me thanks and I love you. For all my blogtasic readers get up of you butts and tell your friend that you appreciate them. Everybody loves feeling like their need and we all need friend. Till next time "BE YOU , BE TRUE, BE LEGIT".